I’ve left the fandom. In the middle of the 2010’s I wiped this website and every profile I had because I was finally ready to admit that there are unspeakable monsters in this community and I was preyed upon by them; my mental illness(es), developmental problems, and confusion over my own sexuality made me the perfect mark. I was manipulated and groomed. I was sexually assaulted. People offered me disgusting sexual favors which I all declined. It was truly disgusting and I never spoke about it as it happened because I was too afraid of retaliation (and still am).
I was 19 when I was lured into this nightmare. I’m in my 30’s now. For years I’ve suffered from profound complications with PTSD and an ever-changing regimen of medications and increasingly intense forms of therapy that do not work. Some very choice people literally ruined my life with the horrific things they exposed me to and normalized to me. I wrote a few racy stories about humans and dinosaurs and was duped into a staff role on Herpy, a website whose reputation has only spiraled out of control even after its death in 2016. It’s not worth it to me to defend what the site actually was; I’m content to just let it burn because I don’t care. I regret everything I did. I am sorry.
Please respect my desire to disengage. I have no gossip to share. With this awful chapter of life behind me I just want to heal and become the best person I can for me, my family, my future partner, and for God. The best years of my life were stolen from me and I will never get them back. Please allow me to have the life that I very nearly lost.
Thank you, and God bless.
– L. Kohn
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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
1-800-273-8255 / 988
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