The time has come for me to say goodbye to the furry fandom, a personal decision that has been a long time coming. I feel these past several years have been equivalent to trying to save a failing relationship and it’s been an uphill battle for me to justify the taxing emotional investment. I will do my best to keep this post short, but as these things tend to go I know I will probably leave many questions unanswered.
I joined this community in late 2007 as a misguided, ill-informed, and sexually confused outcast. I immediately made some very poor choices regarding the company I kept, the people I looked up to, and the situations I allowed myself to get caught up in. This is not who I am, nor is it what I wish to be remembered for. Throughout the years following I have grown as a person and the man I am today is not the wayward boy I was 13+ years ago. This has been a very difficult life lesson for me to show, and I’ve realized the best way for me to demonstrate it is to make peace with matters and move on.
I will always cherish the genuine moments I had with people from this fandom. Many of you brought me up during periods where I felt I was at the end of everything. It is bittersweet for me to finally close the book on this chapter of my life, but I’ve learned time and time again that nothing in this world is meant to last forever. I hold no grudges, but I do have regrets. Over the years I learned the errors of my ways through the help of close friends and therapists; a community so heavily sexualized was the last possible place I should have been when I was at my most emotionally susceptible, impressionable, and vulnerable.
Our journeys deviate here. It has taken me many false starts and years of encouragement with the help of friends and family to reach this point but I am finally ready to reclaim my life and continue from where I derailed all those years ago. I do not have any interest in participating in fandom matters anymore, and I do not wish to be roped back into them. My only request is that you please respect this decision. Thank you.